Nostalgic...

31 Oct 2014


It has been a month after my D&C. I think I'm ok. But I'm feeling nostalgic and there has been so much in my mind.... First thought in my mind, I love my mum very much; I might not have said it enough these recent years but I really really do. The amazing thing is I love my dad very much too after all... I might not say it much but let the action speak on my behalf.. I am trying.... 
My granny's memory is really getting very bad.. Her Alzheimer's is really kicking in... I just hope she'll be happy and be in good health over it all... I think I'm really protective of people close.... Feeling depress when I know that nothing lasts forever...... I'm turning into a mushy marshmallow, I can tear as I write this... Ahhh.... Times are really flying off like a jet...
I miss having friends! Drinking sessions, meeting sessions, activities.....!! It's like I have nothing to look forward to... I need to get back my life....  Now comes the question... 

What makes me happy? 
The answer , I don't know. But I know I need friends...

For now music has been a companion... Listening to music my mother played when I was small... Hence the feeling of nostalgia.... Mixed feelings really... But it helps in a way... Maybe I should write more... I used to love writing stories and all... I think I wanna sulk for a moment *growing up sucks in a way* 

2 in a Row

How do I begin this? How does one handle it? I have no idea....

Can you imagine a person going thru a miscarriage twice in a row? 2 years in a row?

I'm not too sure what I'm feeling now... The first time was rough.. And now.... Am I too numb or too shattered? And this is before have my d & c done for the second time... I cannot comprehend what I will feel when I go thru it this weekend...

I have a strong upfront... But am I really? This is really putting it to the test...

My thought and prayers to my 2 little fallen angels... Keep me strong...

Coming up..

Hey Guys & Gals,

Coming up i'll be posting up items from my trip and reviews and stuff.. keep a look out for it ya...

And an update to my previous drama... from luxola.. they were so kind as to reimburse me with tthe courier charges and exchange the Olay cleanser ... Such great customer service... I'm pretty happy with it... <3 p="">
so keep a look out for my page y'all..!! muaks muaks.. 

Land of the Samurais.. Well used to be..

    I feel so blessed to be able to visit Japan again and again... Thanks to family and my brother for staying in Tokyo with his own family.... Hehehehe... Twice this year is simply A.W.E.S.O.M.E !! How ever this time it wasn't as cold but still fun. No snow for us but food, fun and Lot's shopping for bargains... Since it's winter in Tokyo the summer wears are a steal. Found stuff from H & M and forever 21 from as low as 100Yen. such a *Jaw dropper* hahaha I know right? Tokyo is really a shopping haven for the trendy and fashionistas. There's just too many street wears and styles.  But shopping aside... it's time to have some family time and bonding with my brother and his family.. *love*love*

As i starting to be a seasoned visitor to Japan, I'll need to pick up Japanese soon to help with all the shopping. Hahahaha.. and to communicate with my nephew as he simply refuse to talk in English due to his half and half understanding. His sign language is rather hard to understand as well. lol but never the less his expressions are priceless.. * agitated look mostly.. * hahahaha.

This time it's time for Disneyland yet again with Lot's of Christmas decorations and their 30th Anniversary celebration. Such luck =)

It's the most Happiest Place on Earth. That's the saying for this season.. hahaha and it's pretty hard to deny as it's so colourful and fun also not forgetting damn pack as hell ..!!

The queue for the rides took us about 45 mins to an hour depending on which ride of coz. The famous rides like the Haunted Mansion took almost 80 mins wait time.. SWT. well that's DisneyLand. This time around I didn't get on that many rides as it was packing... couldn't even take that many proper pictures or the parades and other landmark photos as we did the last time. We had to photo bomb or be photo bombed... lol.. Word of advice. If your planning on visiting DisneyLand, wear extra comfy shoes, buy your tickets online and get there early, and a must try * look for the Turkey Leg* It's yummy...!!!

Needless to say, visited a few more landmark places in Tokyo like the rainbow bridge, Sensoji Temple, Giant Gundam, and of coz 109. *Grin* Some adult shops as well.. hahaha such an eye opener. lol...

Such memories.. I can't wait to be back in Japan again. Miss the cold weather already and the extra friendly people there and my family....  But I'll have to recover from this trip financially before i can plan for the next.. hahahahaha .. too broke now... lol.. 

Until The Next time ...!!!

Fright night and Review... Yay..!!

    Hi deeee Hooo peeps...!!  

Just encountered something scary. Someone hacked into my Paypal and email account to make a purchase. Thank god it wasn't my credit card. And i think that card owner didn't know his card was being used as well. coz he retracted the amount. lol.. it's so scary how others can get into all you details.. I'm kinda petrified. Time to change my passwords...

Ok back to reviews.

For today it's Contact lens... I finally found a brand of contacts with nice and not so Opps look.

Brand : Blincon

Selling price : Rm70 for 1 box, Rm100 for 2 box

Duration of wear : 3 months 

So of coz I took 2 boxes. =)

This time i took Sapphire blue and purple. As I'm tried the sterling grey which is quite natural looking too. Just love it.  I've tried many others like FreshLook, Bausch & lomb, Acuveu and many more. But i find this 

much more suitable for me and it has the big eyes effect and doesn't dry up my eyes.

For solution I've tried Renu, Solo Care, Complete and Bio True by Bausch & Lomb.

My best choice is Thang thang... thang ....thaaaannnnngggg..... Bio True by Bausch & Lomb

Brand : Bausch & Lomb renu 120ml x2 & foc 60ml (Travel pack) Left

Price : Rm16.90

Brand : Bausch & Lomb Bio True 300ml x2

Price : Rm48

This is rather on the pricey side.

But overall I find Bio True is a good buy as it keeps the moisture in the lens while it's squeaky clean. I can actually use my lens for more than 12 hours (not always recommended but it can be done; while it does not make my eyes all red and dry) *Thumbs Up*

Fyi, these are all in my opinion only and is not a sponsored ad. ^^

Go ahead and try them out yourself and let me know what you think? 

Review ...On a New Day

Hey Hey Hey, It's a brand new day.!

Recently, I found this website for online beauty purchases called Luxola.com a Singapore base company. They offer varies brands of cosmetics and skincare from Becca ,Sk-II, Kai and many many more just to name a few. They do have the occasional discount voucher of 10 - 30% which i find very useful.  I find the page is easy to manuver and browse.  Althought i find there's a few downers to this page. As a Malaysia buyer the price of the item is somewhat unstable as it follows the conversion rates One day it could be higher the next it could go down a few bucks. Maybe this would not be a problem to others but for me it's rather annoying.. It really depends on how u see it. It you bough an item on a cheap day then that's Great!! hahaha.....

Ok ! Ok ! Moving along...

I made my first purchase on a not too great experience though.  The Olay Megasonic Cleanser, which has a major huu haa about in KL... It's sold out everywhere!! Darn it.

But I managed to order from luxola...
First try: they said i have purchase and send me a tracking number but item could not be tracked for days. Conclusion? Item ran out of stock and i was inform a week later and had my money refunded.  Ouch.. The agony of antisipation for my goodies to arrive and then shattered.....! *ok i'm being a bit dramatic* but that's what it felt like.. honest *Blink* *Blink*

Feeling that I should give this website a try I bought this other good looking pot.

Pricee : Rm50++ with the use of a 30% discount voucher
Verdict : My faith has been restored..!! YAY!!

This item don't just look and sound yummy, IT IS YUMMY!!! lol... Not that I've actually eaten it, but it's really a great buy.  You don't have to use it in a generous amount come on how big is your lips? but if you are feeling genorous you could *up to you* lol.. ^^
I use this like once or twice a week, it would cure your lips from being dead dry but it helps to remove dead skincell and will make your lipstick looking way better.

Tips : better apply lipgloss/vaseline/cocoa butter for lips after scrub. Better still drink lot's of water!!

Second try at the Olay Megasonic Cleanser and presto....
Bought it for Rm95 with 35% discount
Items included the Megasonic Cleanser and the extra brushes.(F.O.C an extra item revitalising cream cleanser)

Delivery to me was broken down to 2 seperate deliveries which they did not informed me. Made me panic.. lol First delivery : extra brushes and foc item. Thought to self, "Where the heck is my machine?" lol
Drama drama and more drama from me...  at the end it came in the next few days... Happy ending... WELL not quite!!!

Using it the first time with cleanser provided : GREAT!! Skin feels Super Clean... Oh I just Love it..!!
FYI, you could use it with your own cleanser but i choose to use the one provided.

Downside... My on off button was spoiled after using it a few times in less than a week. Emailed Luxola abt it and they asked me to send it back and give me a refund.. But I don't want a REFUND...!! I want the MEGASONIC CLEANSER!! *frown*

How can you take it away from me? When I've tried the goodness of it!!NOOOOoooooooOOoooo!!!
=(   Well just my luck..
Emailed to luxola and they very very professional in handling my case. They were really helpful so far. SO i guess it's a plus for them.. but my experience with them have not been a lucky one.  They told me i was the first to have this unfortunate problem with is. Great..!! That just made my day... *Grouchy*


Will I use them again : Probably Yes (with discount vouchers of'coz) I'm a thrifty shopper.

Final Verdict : Good

So that's it for now...!! Have fun and i Hope you have better luck..!! ^^

Beware!!!!!!

Tomorrow will be a new day!!!! And with that said, a new aura and more positive blogging!!! So stay tune to the new and improved ME, oh wait blog.. Lol ...

My biggest sin... Questions...

    People always say, try and try again... But I just don't know what to try anymore... Can someone be so lost til you can't remember why you are even here? So people ask questions and get answers.. But I keep asking but no answers... Maybe I'm just not asking the right questions to get my answer. Most people got it, some not really while others just make do. But I'm not falling into those categories I wonder why? Too many "Why" .

    I know how the world works and I know all that crap about working hard and playing hard, but for me it seems ..... Meaningless... What am I meant to do? How can I be happy? How to be motivated? What's my purpose? Am I suppose to work for money and be satisfied? Work...*shivers* I'm too lazy to work... Or wait, I just haven't found something that drives me so much.... Passion for something.... I lack that.... Question to self : What do I like? What do I want to do? What makes me happy? What's my passion? Answer : "An awkward silence"

     So the agony is such..... What am I doing wrong? Thinking too much without even  trying!

Emotional Breakdown

My gosh, this pass few months have been rough..  Was so happy in May found out that i was pregnant, but after 2 months, emotions run wild.... And miscarriage happen... worst time ever... Had to have a D&C done... Am i too old to have a kid?? so worried and getting a bit emo... hate it..

Time and time again...

In most of my blog entries I've always sounded lost and still not found... I want to change that!  I have been keeping a positive mind set but not being able  to sustain that.  I wonder how some people find their purpose in life and why is  that so hard for me. Soul searching is in need, but how do i do that? People always say stay true to who you are.. but who am I?

                                    ?

I've always prayed for a guardian angel to help show me a path, but i think deep down inside I know that no one can help me but "ME!" Boy, this is gonna be tough...  I know not everyone is born with skills or talent but ME? I'm born with "Lost" lol....


So what now???